What do we live 4 ?

Woke up this morning, and as I looked at the time,  this question echoed in me...
As melodramatic as it sounds, the echo of 4 4 4, sounded like time asking me this question itself - What do you live for ?

Some questions may not be correctly framed, but the partial answers and reflections it leaves you with, makes it worth listening to, more so when its the silence that speaks  to you! 

So ...... I have been thinking!
Important pillars of my life ......

Family
Birth family and "by law" family .... those who I originated from, those who originated from me .They are my most important ties in journey of this life time. My each decision, from major to minor, passes that invisible filter of my family .....yet they have given me an autonomy to be me !
I live in this intricate fabric of relationships, caring in best of my capacity to nurture and value its existence.
My " humsafar "..... but  I don't live " for " them.

Closest to my soul ,  bonds
If at all, these relationships have liberated me from the mundaneness of ongoing wheel of life . They enrich me, polish me, add value to my existence. These connections,with no strings attached,no clauses - complete in their "being " as is, connect me to myself, more than anything else .....uncontained by walls  of time, space ..
Forever in me ......but I do not live " for "them.

Career
Dr. Manpreet Khemka, MD
Valuable prefix that is earned with hard work, single minded focus since as far in my childhood, as I can remember. Irreplaceable conviction that I will do all in my professional capacity to make a meaningful change. One life at a time ! It has brought me humility and serenity to accept things I can change, and ills I cannot and wisdom to know the difference. " What do you live for " is a question that has come out in interactions with patients, who have been at the verge of pulling down the curtains on the" life stage " .
It gives a direction, predictability, sanity, stability,grounding, gratitude - important color on the canvas of my life at this stage ... but I do not live" for " them .

Creativity
Music, photography, amateurish writing skills. These are expressions - at times of a turbulence in me - therapeutic and healing in that regard.At other times, attempt to freeze the glory of a moment, a thought , an experience and show case it .
It bows to  the "being "......but I do not live "for " them .

On the stage of life, before we can even absorb a scenario in its entirety - characters, situation, complex interplay of energies,roles; the scene changes ...aren't we connected as snapshots then to these transient roles ?.....as crucial as they could be , living" for " them is futile then ..


Pause, reflect, absorb, accept your answer, accept if you don't have an answer .....

I live for - "life " .
I AM !!